Reflections after doing retreat on the four establishments of mindfulness

Dronsel and a monastic smiling with arms out, in a snowy meadow.

Dronsel was an anagarika (eight-precept lay trainee) at Sravasti Abbey. These poems capture her insights from participating in the 2023 Winter Retreat on the four establishments of mindfulness. She is now ordained as Venerable Thubten Pelgye.

Selfless

Mind as mind knows no peace
Mind at peace is no mind at all
A body as body knows no ease
A body at ease is no body at all
A self as self knows I without contentment
A self without I is selfless with contentment

Skeleton

The future me is the current you
The past you is the current me
We are formed by the four elements,
Five aggregates, six consciousnesses
Removing them, ashes to ashes,
Dust to dust
What difference is there between us?

Self-centered

Where is the heart when there is mine
Where is the mind when there is an I
Where is the I when there is not a self
Where do sentient beings lie when there is a self

Venerable Thubten Pelgye

Ven. Thubten Pelgye grew up in Singapore and had a keen interest about rebirth and karma since she was young. Her family was not Buddhist, so her first encounter with Chinese Mahayana Buddhism was during a rebellious period. She was introduced to Tibetan Buddhism where she found answers about rebirth and karma. She continued studying Tibetan Buddhism and especially resonated with karma and bodhicitta. Being a nun started to be on her mind. Ven. Pelgye finished her degree in accounting and continued her career as an auditor, accountant, and manager, fulfilling her mother’s wishes. She was a sportsperson in badminton, marathon, and cycling. The sun, sand, and sea were her favorite places. However, she felt that this was not true happiness and the benefit she could give to others was very limited. She was greatly inspired by Thousand-Armed Chenrezig and Tara. Hence, she started looking for a monastery to continue pursuing her monastic aspiration. She trained in Taiwan for a period of time under the Gelug Tradition, different Geshes, and the Chinese Mahayana tradition. She searched for many places to practice and received a recommendation from a Geshe to look at Sravasti Abbey. She arrived at the Abbey in April 2022, taking refuge and 5-lay precepts under Venerable Chodron. She became an Anagarika Dronsel in June 2022. She then requested ordination and on September 16th, 2023 she ordained and became Ven. Thubten Pelgye. Some of her opportunities for service at the Abbey include administration, public relations, and forest work. She enjoys outdoor work and taking walks around the Abbey.

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