This poem by Venerable Lamsel, whose name means “Clear Path,” arose from a discussion among monastics concerning whether it was appropriate to call Sravasti Abbey their home. For some, “home” brought up connotations of sticky emotional bonds that monastics as “left-home ones” have relinquished. For Venerable Lamsel, “home” had a different meaning.
You! so-called Clear Path, who have entered the homeless life
Such that no parent can call you a child, no king, his subject
How can you, child of the Buddha, daughter of the Shakya clan
Build up another nest, a new net of attachment, by calling this monastery ‘home’?
These five aggregates—polluted, defiled, on fire, burning with desire
Are the home in which I live,
The object of abandonment, of gradual transformation,
The very reason I entered this homeless life.
These clung-to aggregates,
The source of my continual becoming, re-coming
Are an open wound unable to withstand
The jostle of worldly life.
Thus I have chosen a new home,
A container and its contents, this monastery and its monastic life
Able to restrict, constrict the force of afflictions and karma
That would otherwise impel me to the depths of suffering beyond concept.
These four walls are the four establishments of mindfulness,
The surrounding meadows charnel grounds reminding me of death and impermanence,
The field of service an antidote to the afflictions,
The vast sky the sphere of emptiness in which all conceptual elaborations cease.
It is the fortress able to withstand
The firework displays of self-centered thought
As it loses its battle against the ever-strengthening
Army of conscientiousness, integrity, and consideration for others.
This is a home where the heart indeed grows sweet,
Infused with the unshakeable awakening mind
That sees clearly how all agents and objects
Exist only through actions of boundless kindness.
It is for these reasons that I, Clear Path,
Rightly call this monastery, place of refuge and protection, “home.”
Venerable Thubten Lamsel
Ven. Thubten Lamsel began studying the Dharma in 2011 at The Dhargyey Buddhist Centre in Dunedin, New Zealand. When she began exploring the possibility of ordination in 2014, a friend referred her to the Preparing for Ordination booklet by Venerable Thubten Chodron. Soon after, Ven. Lamsel made contact with the Abbey, tuning in weekly for the livestreamed teachings and offering service from afar. In 2016 she visited for the month-long Winter Retreat. Feeling like she had found the supportive monastic environment she had been looking for, under the close guidance of her spiritual mentor, she requested to come back for training. Returning in January 2017, Ven. Lamsel took anagarika precepts on March 31st. In the most fantastic circumstances, she was able to take her sramaneri and shikshamana vows during the Living Vinaya in the West course on February 4, 2018. See photos. Ven. Lamsel previously worked as a university-based public health researcher and health promoter at a small non-governmental organization. At the Abbey she is part of the video recording/editing team, helps with inmate outreach, and enjoys making creations in the kitchen.