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Kære Venerables Thubten Chodron, Thubten Chonyi og Thubten Semkye,

Venerable Chonyi, you gave me the most kind of words via an email the past few weeks. You guided me spiritually with just a few words and I felt healing begin. My mind has been much more at peace.

Ærværdige Semkye, dine sidste to Bodhisattva Morgenhjørnets undervisning fik mig til at begynde at tænke og søge igen efter mere Dharma-lære, efter svar. Disse to nylige lærdomme åbnede mit sind for mine egne foruroligende tanker. Din ærlighed rørte mig. Jeg begyndte at lære igen.

Venerable Thubten Chodron, your teaching on self-centered thoughts not only had me laughing: I was so self-centered I actually thought you were talking directly to me (tongue in cheek). The teaching was about millions of us human beings, and it was about me as well. I had not realized what I had done until I listened to your teaching. I knew I had been lost in grief and loss and felt great pain for quite a while now. I knew my reaction to the losses and my behavior caused me even greater pain. I had put up boundaries, tightly, rigidly, and all but covered myself in the hole I had dug and “decorated” for myself. This hole created depression and great anxiety. I was so stuck in the hole that I was all but certain I would never get out of it. Miserable, I had no idea what to do. I was stuck in grief from one loss, then another, and more people kept passing out of my life. I wondered why I was depressed and anxious. So I kept searching for answers—answers that would not only open my eyes and my mind, but my heart as well.

I min forvirring troede jeg, at mine selvcentrerede tanker var min bedste ven. Da jeg så, at det ikke var tilfældet, kravlede jeg ud af mit hul, dækkede det til med cement og begyndte at leve igen, grinede igen, praktiserede Dharma igen og tænkte på andre ting end mig selv. Så jeg har lært MEGET for nylig. At tænke på andre, ikke på sig selv, er meget potent medicin.

Through the Dharma the three of you shared with me, I received the answers I had been searching for. My heart became peaceful. I plan to work hard, open my heart and mind to continue learning the Dharma, to keep the mind of “me me me” at bay, and to share what I have learned with others that are in pain.

Tak fordi du deler Dharmaen. Det har gjort en kæmpe forskel i mit liv, og derfor kan jeg måske gøre en forskel i en andens liv.