Возвращение на правильный путь

Дорогие почтенные Тубтен Чодрон, Тубтен Чони и Тубтен Семке,

Venerable Chonyi, you gave me the most kind of words via an email the past few weeks. You guided me spiritually with just a few words and I felt healing begin. My mind has been much more at peace.

Достопочтенный Семке, ваши последние два Бодхисаттва Учения «Уголка для завтрака» заставили меня снова начать думать и искать другие учения Дхармы, ответы. Эти два недавних учения открыли мой разум собственным тревожным мыслям. Твоя честность тронула меня. Я снова начал учиться.

Venerable Thubten Chodron, your teaching on self-centered thoughts not only had me laughing: I was so self-centered I actually thought you were talking directly to me (tongue in cheek). The teaching was about millions of us human beings, and it was about me as well. I had not realized what I had done until I listened to your teaching. I knew I had been lost in grief and loss and felt great pain for quite a while now. I knew my reaction to the losses and my behavior caused me even greater pain. I had put up boundaries, tightly, rigidly, and all but covered myself in the hole I had dug and “decorated” for myself. This hole created depression and great anxiety. I was so stuck in the hole that I was all but certain I would never get out of it. Miserable, I had no idea what to do. I was stuck in grief from one loss, then another, and more people kept passing out of my life. I wondered why I was depressed and anxious. So I kept searching for answers—answers that would not only open my eyes and my mind, but my heart as well.

В замешательстве я думал, что мои эгоцентричные мысли были моим лучшим другом. Увидев, что это не так, я вылез из своей норы, замазал ее цементом и снова начал жить, снова смеяться, снова практиковать Дхарму и думать о других вещах, кроме себя. Итак, я многому научился за последнее время. Думать о других, а не о себе — очень мощное лекарство.

Through the Dharma the three of you shared with me, I received the answers I had been searching for. My heart became peaceful. I plan to work hard, open my heart and mind to continue learning the Dharma, to keep the mind of “me me me” at bay, and to share what I have learned with others that are in pain.

Спасибо, что поделились Дхармой. Это сильно изменило мою жизнь, и благодаря этому, возможно, я смогу изменить жизнь кого-то другого.