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Эрхэм хүндэт Тубтен Чодрон, Тубтен Чони, Тубтен Семкье нар аа,

Venerable Chonyi, you gave me the most kind of words via an email the past few weeks. You guided me spiritually with just a few words and I felt healing begin. My mind has been much more at peace.

Эрхэм хүндэт Семки, таны сүүлийн хоёр Бодьсатва Өглөөний цайны булангийн сургаалууд намайг илүү олон номын сургаал, хариултыг эрэлхийлж, бодож эхэлсэн. Саяхны тэр хоёр сургаал миний сэтгэлийг түгшээсэн бодолд минь нээж өгсөн. Таны үнэнч шударга байдал миний сэтгэлийг хөдөлгөсөн. Би дахин сурч эхлэв.

Venerable Thubten Chodron, your teaching on self-centered thoughts not only had me laughing: I was so self-centered I actually thought you were talking directly to me (tongue in cheek). The teaching was about millions of us human beings, and it was about me as well. I had not realized what I had done until I listened to your teaching. I knew I had been lost in grief and loss and felt great pain for quite a while now. I knew my reaction to the losses and my behavior caused me even greater pain. I had put up boundaries, tightly, rigidly, and all but covered myself in the hole I had dug and “decorated” for myself. This hole created depression and great anxiety. I was so stuck in the hole that I was all but certain I would never get out of it. Miserable, I had no idea what to do. I was stuck in grief from one loss, then another, and more people kept passing out of my life. I wondered why I was depressed and anxious. So I kept searching for answers—answers that would not only open my eyes and my mind, but my heart as well.

Төөрөгдөлдөө би өөрийнхөө амин хувиа хичээсэн бодлуудыг миний хамгийн сайн найз гэж бодсон. Тийм биш гэдгийг хараад нүхнээсээ мөлхөж гараад цементээр бүрж, дахин инээж, дахин ном бясалгаж, өөрөөсөө өөр зүйл бодож амьдарлаа. Тиймээс би саяхан маш их зүйлийг сурсан. Өөрийгөө бус бусдын тухай бодох нь маш хүчтэй эм юм.

Through the Dharma the three of you shared with me, I received the answers I had been searching for. My heart became peaceful. I plan to work hard, open my heart and mind to continue learning the Dharma, to keep the mind of “me me me” at bay, and to share what I have learned with others that are in pain.

Номыг хуваалцсанд баярлалаа. Энэ нь миний амьдралд асар их өөрчлөлт авчирсан бөгөөд үүний ачаар би хэн нэгний амьдралд өөрчлөлт оруулж магадгүй юм.